It’s as if I know It's as if I know our paths crossed by accident somewhere somehow one of us should’ve walked away but didn’t. It’s as if I know someone else waits for you at home in a different life you’re an old friend I never met I ignore your Friend request on Facebook but didn’t. It’s as if I know you and I say I do to different people on a January that's not the 12th promising the best and worst of each other but didn’t. It’s as if I know, in every other dimension versions of ourselves follow a different script I’m in Suva, and you never come to Fiji but didn't. In this time, it's you, and in this time, it's us We choose one another after every fight, you surprise me with gifts and I try to give you money saving advice that I don’t follow. In this time, it's me and in this time, it's us against all odds, we've made two countries our home and one life-time forever.
Death is meant to be simple Straightforward You die, lay in a coffin and sink into the soil We all know our day is coming. Hold a funeral, and grieve your loss till you can walk again No one talks about the death you experience while breathing, while laughing. Tell me why is there a coffin in my chest The best of me laying in it My body pretending It isn’t a corpse, battered and bruised by half promises and ‘maybe’ hopes. Tell me why can’t I see past today? It’s like, tomorrow doesn’t exist My today is tired of carrying yesterdays mistakes This coffin is heavy, and so everyday I wake with it sometimes hoping that today will be burial day
It's the weekend before the 3rd, and I find myself on new ground. I am still trying to understand the new sign posts here, bask in the sun without getting burnt, finally breathe without the stench of a prison cell in my chest. The air is fresh, the sun doesn't set and I miss Him I wonder, Did the Israelites ever miss seeing fresh manna in the desert? Did they learn that sometimes a hard rock doesn't give you a river? Do their children ask why the clouds in the sky are so high up, and not right up front? I know why the Lord brought them through the desert, 40 years, same sandles, same cloud because I know what the promised land doesn't show you. - A front row seat, to the Compassionate God , to the God who wept alongside Mary and Martha, to the God who is a whisper in the wind, no fire. Spoon feeding your bruised body, washing blood out your fresh wounds I am sitting on new ground, my prayer list is alot shorter and I miss Him
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