It’s as if I know It's as if I know our paths crossed by accident somewhere somehow one of us should’ve walked away but didn’t. It’s as if I know someone else waits for you at home in a different life you’re an old friend I never met I ignore your Friend request on Facebook but didn’t. It’s as if I know you and I say I do to different people on a January that's not the 12th promising the best and worst of each other but didn’t. It’s as if I know, in every other dimension versions of ourselves follow a different script I’m in Suva, and you never come to Fiji but didn't. In this time, it's you, and in this time, it's us We choose one another after every fight, you surprise me with gifts and I try to give you money saving advice that I don’t follow. In this time, it's me and in this time, it's us against all odds, we've made two countries our home and one life-time forever.
Death is meant to be simple Straightforward You die, lay in a coffin and sink into the soil We all know our day is coming. Hold a funeral, and grieve your loss till you can walk again No one talks about the death you experience while breathing, while laughing. Tell me why is there a coffin in my chest The best of me laying in it My body pretending It isn’t a corpse, battered and bruised by half promises and ‘maybe’ hopes. Tell me why can’t I see past today? It’s like, tomorrow doesn’t exist My today is tired of carrying yesterdays mistakes This coffin is heavy, and so everyday I wake with it sometimes hoping that today will be burial day
The first time I ever got so sick I was down in bed for four whole days Had to force myself to eat a tiny piece of Cassava a day, just so I can swallow my pills after. As soon as I felt the fatigue, cough and headache I took myself to Dr Yee Chief in flagstaff. She told me all she knew, checked my breathing and wrote some scribbles on a paper, encoded life that only the pharmacist could decipher I don’t know why I didn’t rush there this time See, when you first realize that you might have a mental illness Your immediate reaction isn’t to go see Dr Yee Chief in flagstaff It’s not due to the weather, who’s probably tired of being blamed left, right and centre here in Suva. You don’t even google search the symptoms cos google might tell you you’re dying and you might like it. Depending on anything and nothing, you sit there thinking, this makes sense and no s...
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